minihulk

The darkness has consumed my soul.
There was silence inside of my body.
I had no feeling left but anguish and loneliness.
The tears ran like the rain outside my window.
Wild and unruly.
As I sit here smoking like a chimney to numb out any other emotion that tried to come into my heart and soul.
The sound of the rain is comforting but my heart is dying.
Crying out for help but silence rings around me.
The sound of the rain is more comforting than my own touch.
Dreaming would be better than being wide awake in this cold room.
The anugish hurts so much it feels like this is the last day I will ever live.
It’s tearing up my heart on the inside but killing my soul.
The light in my eyes are dead.
My eyes have become dull and ugly.
The sound of my own voice scares me and makes me quiver in this dark room.
The cigarette is my only comfort and I puff it as if it were to heal my pain.
The dark room is so small room and its becoming even smaller.
The sound of the rain is talking to me inviting me into it’s wet world.
I take a step outside my door and let the rain drench me in its tears.
As mine flow down my own world.
I scream out towards the sky hoping it will hear me and scream back.
As thunder starts to swallow up the silence.
My cigarette is drenched but I no longer care.
I’m on my knees in tears and my soul is now dead.
There is no life in my eyes and the only comfort I have left is pain.
All the sounds around me are drowned out by the rain.
I hit the ground as hard as I can breaking my my fingers on by one.
As blood tickles down my arms and broken wrist.
I no longer feel in this world.
I no longer have a heart that beats and a soul that brings happiness into my heart.
I cry in the rain knowing nothing will ever change.
Knowing my efforts have all been a waste.
I get up and scream into the sky again.
When the one I loved stood there watching it all happen from the beginning to end.
I look into his eyes and he looks into mine.
Cringing from the sight that I am right now.
I begin to laugh but not out of happiness….
I just lost my mind to all the cruelties in the world.
I laugh because i am dead and there is no escaping the darkness once you let it take you whole. 
I stand and I cry with blood dripping onto the concrete.
I laugh until I can laugh no more and I cry until there are no more tears to be wept.
I stand there until I can not stand anymore.
I’m lost….